Wrote this after watching One Direction's latest music video "History" which you can watch here. Just sharing the feels! x
By now, all of us probably know or are at least aware that people come
and go, simply because not everyone that you meet is going to understand you
and not everyone that will be a part of your life will always stay or be with
you through every challenge you face.
Growing up, I had no idea I was slowly changing as the people around me
gradually drifted away from me. Or maybe I was the one who drifted away from
them. But is it just me or do you ever just close your eyes at night and begin
picturing your life from when you were a kid until your life at present? You
were once an innocent, carefree and fun kid playing hide and seek with your
childhood friends, worrying about where to hide or where to find your friends
who have been hiding and no other problems bigger than that as compared to what
you're facing as you grow older every year. When I was a few years younger, I
would often wish for time to fast forward to the part where I am no longer a
kid; I was wishing to experience adulthood. Thinking about that wish now is
probably one of the ridiculous wishes I've ever made but I won't change a thing
because I know I've learned lessons from it.
I thank movies and books for giving me hope in
everything - love, success, money and most especially, friendship. After a
number of books read and tons of films watched, I have always viewed friendship
as such a fragile relationship between people. It will always
either make or break you, just like how people can do as
well. Without trust and loyalty to each other, all these relationships are
nothing but a game of "I want to be friends with you so I can keep
your secrets and destroy your image to other people when we fight and part
ways." I think the main reason why friendships fall apart most of
the time is because of jealousy. It's a cycle; you gain more and there will be
people around you who are always going to try to bring you down. If you feel
like falling, breathe and focus. You are entitled to cut them totally out of
your life; it is your life, not theirs. Let yourself free from the grasps of
people who have a hold on you but then left you walking alone on the road of
life. If they were the ones who left you, it's okay to cry but remember that
they left simply because you deserve so much better.
To the friends who promised me that they will never leave but did, thank you. Thank you for the temporary happiness you've brought to my life. I know I was deeply hurt and you all have no idea but that's it. I'm much better now and currently healing. But like I said, I would not change a thing. I wouldn't be where I am (with a circle of friends who have accepted me and my flaws & with my family, the people who will always be there for me no matter what) if not for all those of you who left me wandering alone. We are all in good terms now, however, there is one thing that I ask of you to do: be better & brave and stop running away from reality.
To my mom, my brother and all my friends who are doing a pretty great job filling the spaces of my heart, I love each and every one of you. I was (and still am) only a black pen in a case of color pens but that didn't stop you all from seeing right through me. Thank you for putting up with me. For all the times that you’ve turned my frown to a smile and for encouraging me to do all the best things in a good way to achieve my goals, thank you. And most of all, thank you for existing and not just simply existing but living your life with me.
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